Have you ever noticed the flavor of day, you know like lime, a little fizzle, but to poured too long ago and now about to go flat. Lime? or maybe charcoal, a little bitter and on the peppery side, the kind of day that itches for something exciting to happen. Thank kind of day. Then there is the flavor of apple, juicy sweet with a tang that hits you right at the back of the throat, like the lie that lingers on the tip of the tongue , yet unspoken.
None of the latter describe the day I had today. Gray, very gray to start. Oppressively gray, overcast as they say, heavy. I did not want to get out of bed. My body felt dense, lethargic, tamasic, immobilized by total inertia. Really, I felt so incredibly grounded. I never feel that connected to the earth. Definitely an heretofore unknown experience. So intently aware of each breath, each moment as it moved into the next. I did not want to be disturbed. Coffee helped, a little. Writing definitely gave way to space and freedom from entombment. Nothing like starting the day trying to get out of a sarcophagus.
Taught a private lesson at 8:30. Good, I did a good job, felt satisfied by all elements of the class I taught. On to the next private client. It too went very well as did my 12:30 private lesson and the one I taught at 4:00 pm. I am feeling deeply connected to my intuition, my knowledge and all the tools I have gathered along the way. So much gratitude for all the wonderful, giving, authentic teachers who have crossed my path. Huh. I just realized they all had one thing in common. Never really knew why or what it was that drew me to each one of my teachers, but now I do, integrity, self-knowledge, sacrifice and surrender. Lou Hoyt, Felicity Green, Rodney Yee, Cyndi Lee, Rod Stryker and Roshi Joan Halifax all exemplify authenticity.
These are the men and women who taught me how to taste the flavor of my life. Today’s flavor? Dark chocolate whip with peppermint pieces and caramel chunks. blended into a creamy mocha frappe and topped with dried blueberries. Oh Yeah.
Thank you too to my husband who out did himself making curried butternut squash soup and grilled steel head trout with New Orléans seasoning. I am still savoring the bits that caught between my teeth, a delicious meal.
To bed or to read. Not sure which. Good night.