Sitting, writing my morning pages at 6 am. Thy will be done. I love writing those 4 words. thy will be done. As I have worked through the chapters of The Artist Way, I have returned to a faith in The Divine. What do I want to write about today? It has been so much fun to live an inspired life, to write every day, and to watch the words spill out onto the page. I spent years wanting to do exactly what I am doing today. Now that my time has come, I ask God daily to use me for the highest good of all.
I read recently that Flannery O’Conner prayed to be a channel for God, to write and to be read. She humbly asked for guidance. She asked God to help her publish her work. I vividly remember the first time I read one of her works, The Artificial Nigger. The realism of her writing stunned me. She faced the racial issues of her time head on. She was a Southern who dared to speak out against racial prejudice. She published multiple books and short stories and was widely read. I would say her prayers were answered. O’Connor completed more than two dozen short stories and two novels while battling lupus. She died on August 3, 1964, at the age of 39, of complications from the disease. She never married.
I asked God today to help me keep writing, to work and keep working until I publish something anything and then to keep writing and publish more. I believe that it is my destiny to tell my story, but I know that if I am wrong, the work I am doing now will guide me in the direction I need to go. Today, I know I must write if I am to fulfill my purpose here on earth. I still have no idea where all this writing will take me, but I have faith that it is the road I must now travel. I know that my story is your story, a story of heart ache, disappointment, rejection, and struggle. But it is also a story of hope, redemption, healing, transformation, love, desire and blessings beyond measure.
In his book, To Bless the Space Between Us, John O’Donohue repeatedly mentions new beginnings and thresholds of change. “Nothing is rushed,” he says. “Change arrives in nature when the time has ripened.” I feel myself ripening, coming into fruition, trusting my desire to write, to be a public speaker, and to tell my story so that others can tell theirs.
When my husband and I attended, Yogarupa Rod Stryker’s Yoga of Fulfillment (now called The Four Desires) Workshop, we learned about Dharma Code. Yogarupa said, “Each one of us is a note in the symphony of creation – if we don’t play that note, the music isn’t completely clear” – and this is why we all need to discover our purpose, and live our dharma code.” More recently he said this, “Your soul is boundlessly impassioned and always ready to impart you whatever you need to thrive.” I believe this to be true. I have experienced this boundlessness. I know if I ask for what I need and I align myself with my highest purpose, I will succeed.
John O’Donohue writes, “To change is one of the greatest dreams of every heart – to change the limitations, the sameness, the banality, or the pain. It demands courage and a sense of trust in whatever is emerging.” We must believe that somehow life needed us and wanted us to be. To accept that we are needed is to be free of fear. I accept. Thy will be done.
Writing into the Light 